valerian root is my new best friend.

so, i spent a large portion of my week researching home remedies for anxiety in the hopes that i won't make myself physically ill in the next few months through the power of worry alone.

have i mentioned that wedding planning (well, planning anything really) is not my strong suit?

so far i have picked: dress, venue, lodging, food, and photographers.

can i please be done now?

as far as anxiety goes, i keep being advised to exercise daily! eat healthy! get lots of rest! well, let me tell you, i already do all those things. i have not yet resorted to pills, so i am trying the herbal route for now.

anyway, must focus. i am really good at focusing. on one thing. i am really bad at giving my full attention to multiple things. the problem is that right now many things need my attention and it leaves me feeling sad and overwhelmed, so therefore i do nothing. good solution, right?

in order to get married in scotland, i have to book things early which means three months ago, or better yet NOW. except right now i have to focus fully on school, because i have two months left before i have to be a real nurse. and if i fail school, i can't be a real nurse, and if i can't be a real nurse than i can't get paid a RN's salary, and if i don't get paid a RN's salary, i can't afford to have a wedding in scotland!

UGH, THE VICIOUS CIRCLE.

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On a better note:
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I am fairly confident in saying I am now in the best shape of my life. I might not necessarily be the thinnest I have ever been, but I am in seriously good shape. I have muscle definition in my puny arms!

Here is my exercise schedule:

Sunday: Yoga
Monday: 6 mile run
Tuesday: Group weights class
Wednesday: Rest
Thursday: 6 mile run
Friday: Spinning
Saturday: Group weights class

Diet:
Try not to eat crap

Moral:

I may have a nervous breakdown in the next 7 months, but at least I will look good while I have it.

P.S.

Yes, I realize my capitalization and grammar is all over the place. Thanks.